Because I always do what Sera tells me to...

NOT



Gosh, I love those guys. Haha. Psych is the best show ever - no joke.

So, I had written like half of this post. and then I clicked a button and it all deleted. and so I screamed, went and had a couple giant bites of pudding, and came back to persevere. So if I seem short.... that's why. (I must really love you, P. you better be freaking grateful.)

SO anyways!


"Oh yeah
So scared of breaking it that you won't let it bend
And I wrote two hundred letters I will never send
Sometimes these cut are so much deeper then they seem
You'd rather cover up, I'd rather let them bleed
So let me be and I'll set you free" 

Gosh, I love those guys also. ;) Yeah. I bought Maroon5's new album. and it IS freaking amazing. I seriously adore it!

SO. Miss Seraphima A. Stoff (what is your middle name, Ser? May I suggest Alana? orr... Justine. Orrrrrr Marguerite. OR OR OR Isabella (pronounced spanishly), or Isalli (pronouced spanishly)or Rilla (pronounced spanishly)) ANYWAY Sera wants an account of what I've been doing lately. So here goes [accuracy improves as it goes along]

monday the 13th of september
Got HP & the Goblet of Fire.  Went to acting, where I had to write a soliloquy and a bio (I hate writing about myself. NOT! haha, but yeah, sorta). Took my friend AnnaMae home, which was fun, cause we got to talk. Came home and read, and read some more, or something.

tuesday the 14th of september 
Went to math class. Prof talked about linear equations and word problems. No time for doodles. came home, listened to 'the coffeehouse' a sirius XM radio station. read some more.

wednesday the 15th of september
went to the BEACH!! with my fam and my Oma and Aunt and Cousin [jell]. We went to surfside, and the water was CLEAR. excuse my geeking out - this is a Texas beach we're talking about. I mean, normally you can't see your hand an inch from your face. This time, my cousin took a picture of her leg, and could see it all the way... and more. I mean... WOW. anyways, I acted anti-social when we first got there, laid on the beach and finished my book [sorry cedric, but your death just wasn't that sad when surrounded by the beauty of the ocean. sucks for ya, though.] After I'd finished it I went and boogie-boarded a bit, and then went in and worked on a sandcastle - http://i-amawriter.blogspot.com/2010/9/ruins-of-abalone.html
I applied, applied again, and REAPPLIED my 8spf tanning lotion, but still came away with a nasty sunburn, all down one side of my back, my arms, even the backs of my hands. [which has just started peeling, but more on that later] Ate dinner/lunch in a place that smelled like a bathroom (and the bathroom smelled like an animal shelter) but the food was good. I watched something when I got home, but I can't remember what :/ sry!! oh, and all day I was singing The Only Exception, acoustic version. It was annoying cause I couldn't remember the words. but oh well! I did some math homework, but HP & The Order of the Phoenix was calling me, so I went to bed to read it. Read until 3 in the morning, when I realized I should finish my math homework. So I got out of bed, realized I had actually done all my homework except for one problem I wasn't sure about, and went back to bed.

thursday the sixteenth of september
went to class. prof talked more about word problems, no time for doodles. Came home and crammed all the work I'd missed on wednesday. Ignored my acting homework, which was to find a celebrity who was like me. went to Y&G. was shocked, but pleased, by the giant amount of people there. Went to bed to read. Read until 4 in the morning, when a poem suddenly struck me. Came out of bed, wrote said poem down, and went back, to read until i finished the book.. at 5 in the morning.

friday the seventeenth of september
Finished the tiny bit of school I had left. cleaned the house a bit, or something. Don't really remember. :D :D went to the mall for a friend's bday at 6. got an amazing parking spot, thanks to my aunt who saved it for me. ate delicious Taco Bell, and then went to Bible study. Bible study was awesome. at one point we had to write three things we were afraid of, and my name was on the top of my brother's and another friend's lists. I love it. :D after that I went back to the same friend's sleepover. ha. it was... interesting. we played a very boring truth or dare game, I, naturally, was the only one who did a dare. I ended up with ranch all over my face, and celery in my hand. *nods* played 'freeze' and the ABC game. Had an hour long politics and religon debate. Did a little 'talent show' thing :D went to bed at about 4:30 or so.

saturday the eighteenth of september
came home and cleaned. managed to finish all my chores before I went to a skit rehearsal thing at one. got cast and all that fun stuff, came home and talked to my dad for five minutes, went to blockbuster in the shooting rain and was afraid I was going to go flying across the road, but I didn't! :) watched HP & the Goblet of Fire with Oms, Auntie D, & J, but didn't have time for OotP. went home and discovered the Netflix app... not so great ;) entered NHHS members into a spreadsheet while watching bones.

sunday the nineteenth of september
went to church! forgot how much my sequined dress scratched me! good sermon. came home, thought I was going somewhere with my mom but we ended up not going cause it was raining again. changed into a much more comfortable outfit and watched a couple episodes of bones, and then went over to Oma's to watch Order of the Phoenix with all of them. Watched that, ate a yummy steak dinner, complete with WONDERFUL AMAZING CARBS (in potato AND bread form. GOSH carbs are GOOD)
anyways. Came home, watched another bones while finishing the NHHS stuff.

monday the twentieth of september
woke up at about noon. attempted to do school, got SOME math homework done, and then gave in and read HP & the Half Blood Prince all afternoon. Was almost done with it when I realized I was about to need to leave for acting and I had no idea where my solliloquy was PLUS i hadn't taken a shower and my hair was grody.  SO i stopped RIGHT after Snape killed Dumbly and ran around looking for my soliloquy saying over and over again in my head 'I thought Snape was good, I thought snape was good' [SERAPHIMA JUSTINE STOFF DO NOT COMMENT ON THIS I HAVENT FINISHED DEATHLY HALLOWS YET AND IF YOU SPOIL IT... INCIPIO MORTALITIS!) didn;t find my soliloquy, decided to finish the book instead of write a new soliloquy ccause I knew I wouldn't be able to focus in acting otehrwise. finshed it, ran to the car, jetted of to acting, mentally writing a soliloquy all the way.got to acting, wrote it all down in my notebook and went in, only to find out we didn't really need it this week. We studied the way people lead (walking wise.) and that - pretty cool. I found out I was cast as the mother in The Nutcracker! I came home and watched last week's project runway, then skyped leiler, halfway through she decided she wanted to hear a show, so she three-way called me and her other friend Olivia, who is a rabid Kataanger. She [leila] would go, 'say something Kataang guys, say something Zutara' so I would say 'well, aang needs to die' and Olivia would go 'How can you think that, that's not right,' and leila would just be dying laughing. we had a nice little conversation though, while I finished the NHHS stuff. Until my mom came and told me it was time for beddie. started deathly hallows

tuesday the twenty-first of september
went to math. prof was just going over the problems I'd already done, so I had time to doodle two Azulas, one awful sokka, half a katara, hermoine, luna, and little ginny. :D got home and did some school. went to rehearsal and had a lot of fun. glitterfied our bake sale posters :D got home and went to bed, got to leila's fave chapters and sorta understood why they were her favorites (harry finally does something realistic, for one!) stopped just before the hogwarts invasion, cause i knew it was fairly late already.

wednesday the twenty-second of september
did school. and school. and school. :D burned my old paper license, which was satisfying. Got the new Maroon 5 album, which is amazing. started to write this blog post and got distracted writing a story, accidentely deleted this post, cussed, made and ate pudding, started to write this new one, went to gringoes and had enchiladas and frozen yogurt, came home, and finished this post :) :)

well

there ya go, Seraphima Justine [justine is definitely your middle name. definitely]

Now, I am completely out of words. I'll go scan all the doodles I've made over the last few days instead :)

Shila Epilouge (Pianikpok) - A/N [AKA a really long a sappy post :D]

[BTW this is my 80th post! :) pretty epic 80th post, I think! :D]

So, wow. It's over! eeeps!! Before I go all sappy and comment on how much of a journey this has been, and all that good stuff, first let me comment on this epilouge!

**
This epilouge took me AGES, but not as long as I thought it would. it turned out TOTALLY different from how I had originally planned it, but I think I like it. I think! :D

so, Iroh. Yeah, that was sad, but I downplayed it, cause I didn't want to cry ;(. I needed someone to die and Iroh seemed the easiest. It was a bit wimpy, but I didn't want to get rid of anyone else. Well, Aang is a different story.

Hikari means light in japanese!! :) I LOVE that name, too! I was so happy when i searched it and found out it was such a pretty name!

Azula! I love her! She was soooooo fun to write! At first I thought I made her a bit TOO childish, but Sera said she was fine. I mean, her main problem is that her mother [supposedly] doesnt love her, so... yep.
Seriously, I want to write like 500 azula one-shots now. She is really fun to write. Try it! no, really...
hee hee, YES i did put a march hare moment in there! I couldn't help myself! It was just begging to be written!!
Oh and this line - “I guess so. It really is Zuzu’s baby? Not that moustache man? The earthbender? You two seemed to –“ LOL omg that crax me up SO MUCH!!! I was like dying when I wrote it... haha!

so. Sokka and Kya hadn't fought! I was like, WHAT? thats impossible! so, yep. :D

:D

OH and I wrote that thunderstorm paragraph one night when there was a giant storm outside. I was like 'ahh, I have to put a storm in my story!' :)

Kya is a bit weepy. But so am I... so... yeah. There is nothing wrong with being emotional!!! :P :D

Yes, Zuko and Kat named their son after Iroh. Isn't that so sweet?? :)

LOOK -> I explained Mai and Ty Lee's absence! haha. not well enough, I know. But I really didn't want to mess with them... I had more than enough characters already. (next time I write a story, remind me to narrow my focus to two or three characters, not like TEN! omyword. haha)

Yeah, so... I'm not really sure what Kya did either. that horizontal column somehow stopped the lightning. And since Ky didn't WANT to hurt azula, it didnt. Please, don't examine it. It is full of flaws :D

Sooo, um, sorry leila for kinda making your life tragic :D but hey, you ended up with Cha-li! so its k, right??? haha. 

Oh yeah, and, I had written this whole thing minus Aang's viewpoint. Like, Sokka just got the letter and then it went back to Kya's pov. but then I realized that I kinda needed to go into detail a bit. So, I put that little bit in. And then had to make this FB status: 'thought people would worry that I just googled 'how fast do you die if you get stabbed in the chest with a knife' until I found a yahoo answer for it and the person who asked the question was in the same predicament as me: writing a story :D'

and yeah, those avatar relics are two of the ones we saw in 'The Storm' :)

and I don't know what shila did to aang. avatar magicky stuff, I guess. :D :D

well, there ends THAT portion of the authors note :) now on to the sap...

:)



Wow. I cannot believe this is over!

When I started this I hadn't even seen the third season. In fact, i think I started it because I wouldn't be able to get the third season for a while and I was having withdraws :D

So, I know I'm going to go back and hate those first few chapters (i already re-wrote chap 3! haha) but it's ok! This was my first fully digital (like, I wrote it all on the computer) story to complete! I can't believe I actually did it! It's amazing, really.

mainly I need to thank Bryke, for creating such an awesome universe to write about! :D and all the voice actors, for living in my head and helping me out! :D
thanks to SERA! omd! Without her, thsi story would suck, no kidding! she was (almost) always there on chat when I needed to bounce ideas, validate viewpoints, or rant about zutara! :) thanks sis!
thanks to my family, who doesn't even know what the heck this story is about, but knows I am writing a story and gives me my space when i'm in the zone :D and tolerates my 'ZUTARA SHOULD BE CANON' random screams :D
thanks to Leila, for actually reading this story! haha! and for inspiring an awesome, if underused, character! :)
Thanks to Dr. Pepper, Fritos, Funyuns, Fast Breaks, and fudge popsicles (OMD do I have a thing for the letter F? What is that about?) for keeping me from going insane! :D
Thanks to my computer for being amazing! :D
and now for the music portion of this.

So, a long time ago, (not really that long) I realized that there were certain songs that fit with this story. So I created a playlist that I called the 'soundtrack'. I will now share this with you:

Stand in the Rain - Superchick
Save You - Kelly Clarkson
Shadowland - Various Artists(The Lion King [Original Broadway Cast])
Boulevard of Broken Dreams - Green Day
Stumptown - Nickel Creek
Maybe - Kelly Clarkson
Somebody Like You - Keith Urban
If I Fell - Evan Rachel Wood
I Want You - Kelly Clarkson
You Remind Me - Allie Moore
Breakeven (Falling to Pieces) - The Script
I Can`t Stop Loving You - Keith Urban
4 Minutes (feat. Justin Timberlake and Timbaland) - Madonna
It's Not My Time - 3 Doors Down
Love Is Worth the Fight - Lanae' Hale
Have you ever really loved a woman? - Bryan Adams
He Lives in You (Reprise) - (Various Artists The Lion King [Original Broadway Cast])
When the Rain Comes - Third Day
Used To The Pain - Keith Urban
Without You - Brooke Fraser
Learning to Fall (Bonus Track) - Love and Theft

That is the Shila Soundtrack :) It is amazing and it really fits, and I love it. :D

other music that I owe my writing capabilites to (for I could not write without music...)

Jack Johnson
Gregory and the Hawk (thanks Alicia aka Squishpie!)
Veer-Zaara soundtrack
Pablo Cassals Bach Cello Suites
DMB (just the song You and Me)
Across the Universe Soundtrack
Replay - Iyaz
John Mayer
Kris Allen
Owl City
Maroon 5
Allie Moore

and THE TRACK TEAM omyword, without them... avatar would have been half of what it is! :)

ok, so... I'll stop being sappy!

I'll tell you now: There will be NO sequel. Haha! I love this AU, and Kya, but... yeah. haha. Maybe a one-shot, but that's unlikely :)

:D

EEK I don't want to end it. I need to bite the bullet

fin

<3

~LS

Ill-I-My

I've done one of these before, but they're just so fun... had to do it again! This is to tide you over until Shila's epilouge is up! [BTW IT'S DONE OMD! I just have to proofread, which could take a while :D]

1. Put your iPod on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Tag 10 friends who might enjoy doing this as well as the person you got this from.


IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
Remedy  [David Crowder Band]
WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Our Kind of Love [Lady Antebellum]

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Umbrella (so I never have to worry about the rain?) [Rihanna]

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Giving It Up For You [Holly Brook]

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Give Me Your Eyes [Brandon Heath]

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Alone (LOL) [Allison Ireheta]

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Daughters (not really... haha) [John Mayer]

WHAT IS 2+2?
Potential Breakup Song [Aly & AJ]

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Believe [Britt Nicole]

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
So Small [Carrie Underwood]

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Words I Can't Say (L O L) [Rascal Flatts]

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Love Don't Live Here (LOL) [Lady A]

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Sweetest Goodbye [Maroon 5]

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
What Can I Say [Carrie Underwood]

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Raise The Barn [Keith Urban feat. Ronnie Dunn]

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Hopelessly Devoted to You [Grease Soundtrack]

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Irvine [Kelly Clarkson]
WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Hole [Kelly Clarkson]

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
The Lion Sleeps Tonight (LOL) [The Lion King soundtrack]

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Good People (LOL again!!) [Jack Johnson]
WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Surely, Surely [Israel Houghton]

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Spring Again [Lanae Hale]

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
You Found Me [The Fray]

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Revelation (if we are talking the book in the bible... close! :D) [Third Day]

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Drive My Car [the Beatles]

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Real Gone [Sheryl Crow]
WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Ill-I-My [toby mac]

Shadowland

"I stared at the scene before me disbelievingly. It just couldn’t be possible. Our tiny, peaceful, little Island had been turned into a horrific example of the power of the Fire Nation. My heart was screaming no but my head knew I had to accept it. Accept what? That almost everyone I knew and loved was dead, and my home was a wreck? I don’t think so."
My version of the aforementioned pic...

I know, it's nowhere even close. (Like seriously... I'm not even going to think about that hand) But it's still cool! and I'm pretty proud of it! :)

done with colored pencils and photoshop.

the lyrics are from 'Shadowland' from the Lion King Broadway soundtrack. (a song which just happens to be on the Shila soundtrack. What's that? You didn't know shila had a soundtrack? more on that later... much later! :D)


:) ty

Indescribable

So last night I didn't get much sleep.
I was pretty bad today.

bad mood, man.

I lost my camera charger. It made me mad. I mean, my parents paid good money for this camera and all I do is go and lose it?? what?? no.

so, I was pretty mad. like, really mad. I looked EVERYWHERE! I even looked in an old suitcase. but no, no cigar.

So I prayed. A lot. and nothing happened, immediately.

I am a very very very impatient person. It truly is one of my worst qualities. I'm working on it though!!!

soooo, I cleaned up my house like I was supposed to. and seeethed. and seethed. and brooded. and seethed.

and chatted with Sera. and Jell.

and then realized that I was being completely and utterly pathetic.

and then the shuffle on my ipod went to this song


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EKSQjSdU8VA

Free To Be Me, Francesca Battistelli


this pretty much defines me.

"Sometimes I believe that I can do anything
Yet other times I think I've got nothing good to bring
But You look at my heart and You tell me
That I've got all You seek
And it’s easy to believe
Even though...

 I got a couple dents in my fender
Got a couple rips in my jeans
Try to fit the pieces together
But perfection is my enemy
On my own I'm so clumsy
But on Your shoulders I can see
I'm free to be me"

It made me feel better, immediately. I love, love, love that song. So much.

And then I went to go put a pen away. And I realized that the table that is under the pen holder also houses the ultimate electronic drawer. and I opened the drawer, rooted around, and found it. IT. my CAMERA CHARGER.

God is so amazing. and wonderful. and incredible.

I love Him.

:)

~LS

la lista...

I was reading dear leila's bloggy/tumbler, and loved a recent post where she made a list...

so, I decided to be a shameless copycat, and make one of my own :D

• Get a story published and have people actually sorta know my name.
  
• Have a bajillion dollars
• Marry Ben Browder
• Have beautiful children who are every bit as awesome as me...
• Live my life to please God
• Be in some sort of production of The Lion King
• See every awesome Broadway show
• Go to every continent, except Antarctica.
• Marry Sokka.
  
• Go to every US state
  
• Sew a dress that actually looks nice
• Have an amazing bikini bod for as long as possible
  
• Marry Aragorn. And live in the Shire half of the year and Gondor the other half. With nice long holidays to Rivendell.
  
• Waterbend
  
• Run a marathon
• Draw something that is truly beautiful
• Live in a house with secret passages
• Have a pet ocelot
• Follow God's direction
• Be on national TV!
• Win American Idol... which would go with the previous!
• Be a good photographer.
  
• As she said... I'm sure there are some I've forgotten!
• empty space - to be filled with forgotten items! :D

thus commences mi lista...

<3

~LS

Shila CHP12 (Padlakpok Ungayok) - A/N

I love this chapter. I really do.

BIG GIANT SHOUT-OUT TO SERA!

she (as usual) was an integral part of the completion of this chappie! Kya was being rather snappish, and I couldn't figure out why. I was in a great mood, but everything I wrote was mean and angry! I told Sera about it (we were im-ing at the time, like we do pretty much 24/7) and she suggested that Kya was sick! GENIUS! :D

So, this whole fanfic was inspired by the Beatles song - If I Fell. Well, Evan Rachel Wood's version of it (from Across the Universe)

I pretty much used its lyrics for Kya's part of her and Sokka's argument. :) I love that song!
It also reminds me, just a bit (the argument) of Sugarland's Stay... though it's not really meant that way.

ANYWAY

:)


~Translations~

Illamar - friend.
buniq - sweet daughter
aga - mother
Padlakpok Ungayok - Falls in love

Spring Again

see that? That is a beautiful flower (I believe it is a blossom on a tree, of some sort).
That is a sign that spring is coming.
OR SO I HOPE!
yes, I am a spring lover. If it weren't for my birthday (in july), the fact that we have a pool in our backyard (i love me some swimming), and no school (three months of pure freedom), Spring would probably be my favorite season.
OK, so maybe not. I mean, there is also the Beach, 4th of July, all the good movies, summer camps, no school (oh wait, did I already say that?), the comfortable clothes... yeah Summer has a lot going for it.

ANYWAY

I do love spring. I love the weather, mostly. Spring is a beautiful season!
Unfortunately, here in Texas, it is taking a long while to get here.
Yes, I did take that picture, but that is only one of very few signs of spring.
The temp today was in the sixties.
While that might not sound too cold to you northerners, that is practically winter to my poor texan body.

I WANT SPRING!!!

*sigh* venting over. Spring will come.

Here, I'll send you off with another pic and a song..


ya know what that is?

You got it... MY CABBAGES!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D <3

"But November leaves won’t fall
Because December stole them all
But I guess its all my fault
I fell frozen one season

Please give me one more chance
And I know I don’t deserve this
But I swear I won’t forget
If you just let it be spring again
Please, let it be spring again"

Spring Again, Lanae Hale

:)

~LS

Perfect People

"Never let 'em see you when you're breaking
Never let 'em see you when you fall
That's how we live and that's how we try
Tell the world you've got it all together
Never let them see what's underneath
Cover it up with a crooked smile
But it only lasts for a little while

There's no such thing as perfect people
There's no such thing as a perfect life
So come as you are, broken and scared
Lift up your heart and be amazed
And be changed by a perfect God

Suddenly it's like a weight is lifted
When you hear the words that you are loved
He knows where you are and where you've been
And you never have to go there again

There's no such thing as perfect people
There's no such thing as a perfect life
So come as you are, broken and scared
Lift up your heart and be amazed
And be changed by a perfect God

Who lived and died to give new life
To heal our imperfections
So look up and see out let grace be enough

There's no such thing as perfect people
There's no such thing as a perfect life
So come as you are, broken and scared
Lift up your heart and be amazed
And be changed by a perfect God

By a perfect God

Be changed by a perfect God
Be changed"

~Natalie Grant, Perfect People

<3

~LS

Poetry

Here is some random poetry I wrote when I was bored today :)

"Splashing, lapping, waves
Beautiful water, dancing
Swirling, healing them"
~Water

"It burns, it smolders
it explodes, with passion. Fire,
bright and beautiful"
~Fire

"Light and whimsical
cool and warm, ever-changing
Air: peaceful and calm"
~Air

"Solid, firm: The earth
stubborn as a solid wall
rocky, and dirty"
~Earth

yes, I'm an AtLA geek. get over it.

Green

"All I see is green

the green of the leaves,
on the spring trees

the green of the grass,
fresh and cool

the green of the brush,
stickers, holly, boxwoods

the green of the weeds,
rearing their ugly heads

the green of the ivy,
creeping slowly over the trees

the green of the water,
covered in scum and reflections.

the green of my envy
for, he loves her, not me"

Aangsty poems are fun to write! I'm not actually envious, or anything, it just fit!

This one is more of a song...

"Floating and bobbing,
quite a sight to see
they sway and they sigh
they engage in curiositu

Filled with air
round as the sun
clear, and glassy
infected with fun

Blow them up
Pop them down
Create, Destroy, Create, destroy

Blow them up
Pop them down
Create, Destroy, Create, destroy

Bubbles
Bubbles
Bu-bbles

Careful now
don't you spill
or everything
be lost, it will.

Careful now,
don't you spill
or everything
everything...

we've had our fill of,

bubbles
bubbles
bubbles
bubbles

Blow them up
Pop them down
Create, Destroy, Create, destroy

bubbles
bubbles
bubbles
bubbles"


That all folks!

Insomnia at it's best...

Ah yes. I, the person who normally takes ten minutes to fall asleep and sleeps until woken up by people screaming my name, me who has no sleep problems, me, your kind humble little blog author... I am the one suffering from insomnia.

So, to remedy the situation I hustled on over to my cousin's blog, and commented on every single one of her 2010 posts. I think there were about fifty. You see, she just recently fixed it so she can receive comments, and I had stored up quite a few words throughout the months.

Now that I have commented on all of her posts, well all I can take: now it is the time for ramblings of my own, not directed by any original post. Are ya ready?

Take a sip of the cactus juice and try to follow my insomniatic brain. Good luck!

*******************

When I think of insomnia I think of Adam Young, better known as Owl City. He began his career with insomnia. If only I could write music... But alas, although I am a good musician, writing it just is a bit out of my league. I'll stick to writing stories and random blog posts. :) :)

His lyrics shall begin my 'not actually written by me' portion of the post...

"Leave my door open just a crack
(Please take me away from here)
'Cause I feel like such an insomniac
(Please take me away from here)
Why do I tire of counting sheep
(Please take me away from here)
When I'm far too tired to fall asleep"

~Owl City, Fireflies

indeed. I'd recommend you go listen to that whole song if you want know how I'm feeling right now. During the day it may seem strange and random, but it makes perfect sense to me at the moment!

Ah, lovely.

My next tidbit comes from Aly and Aj. Oh yes, back in the day I was quite a fan! This song seems even more suited to my current mood...

"One by one
The days, grow longer and longer
And I, in my own sweet pain grow stronger
I must admit, I must admit, I must admit
it's a good insane
I must admit, I must admit, hear me admit!

Whoa-oh oh
I am erratic
Can't break the habit
My current status
With you I'm insomniatic
With you I'm insomniatic"

~Aly and AJ, Insomniatic

I am erratic, but it's a good insane ;)

now, I simply love this quote,

"Insomnia is a gross feeder. It will nourish itself on any kind of thinking, including thinking about not thinking." ~Clifton Fadiman

and this one,

"If a man had as many ideas during the day as he does when he has insomnia, he'd make a fortune." ~Griff Niblack

truest thing in the world.

This one is also scarily true,

"Nothing cures insomnia like the realization that it's time to get up." ~Author Unknown

quite worrisome, indeed.

And this final one is more like a paragraph, but it is the truest of all...

"It's at night, when perhaps we should be dreaming, that the mind is most clear, that we are most able to hold all our life in the palm of our skull. I don't know if anyone has ever pointed out that great attraction of insomnia before, but it is so; the night seems to release a little more of our vast backward inheritance of instincts and feelings; as with the dawn, a little honey is allowed to ooze between the lips of the sandwich, a little of the stuff of dreams to drip into the waking mind. I wish I believed, as J. B. Priestley did, that consciousness continues after disembodiment or death, not forever, but for a long while. Three score years and ten is such a stingy ration of time, when there is so much time around. Perhaps that's why some of us are insomniacs; night is so precious that it would be pusillanimous to sleep all through it! A "bad night" is not always a bad thing." ~Brian W. Aldiss

marvelous!!

Now back to songs...
This one is by Cadillac Sky, lovely band, quite lovely!!

"Toothpicks in my eyelids, lying wide awake in bed
Tossin' and turnin' like the sea
Moonlight shining like headlights in my room
Hypnotized by the stripes on my TV

Ohhh
I'd give anything
For just
One good night's sleep
One good night's sleep"

~Cadillac Sky, Insomniac blues for Matthew

you have to go listen to that full song, it's awesome!!

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh I can feel my self winding down. See, this is the point of a blog!! Wonderful!!

I have a couple more songs...

This one is - simply - beautiful

"If you be my boat,
I'll be your sea
a depth of pure blue just to probe curiosity
ebbing and flowing and pushed by a breeze
I live to make you free
I live to make you free

but you can set sail to the west if you want to
and past the horizon till I can't even see you
far from here where the beaches are wide
just leave me your wake to remember you by"

~Gregory and the Hawk, Boats and Birds

currently one of my faves!! I discovered it while reading a fanfic named after it... You should check it out (The song and the Fanfic) ! :)

ahhhh we reach the end. Sleep is in my sights. Here is one last song for you, and then we'll perhaps see one more quote...

"Silent war is declared
Vision fails when the soul’s impaired
Noises numb the mind and
Love grows cold with time
If nothing fills the empty hole
That every human heart knows

So I will wait for you
Till fire burns, the earthquakes, and the waves are few
Cause silence is where you like to stay
So here I am I’m waiting for You
In this quiet place"

~Lanae Hale, Quiet Place

I love her voice!! Magnificent!!

Here is a quote to send you off -

"Dawn: When men of reason go to bed." ~Ambrose Bierce

and one more,

"O bed! O bed! delicious bed!
That heaven upon earth to the weary head."
~Thomas Hood, Miss Kilmansegg - Her Dream

I believe I shall now make the most of the precious few hours I have left.

Goodnight my dearest readers!!

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http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Insomnia

thank you for reading!!

~LS