I have now been a senior for an entire quarter. Yes, 1/4 of my last high school year is gone.
If I weren't inclined to writing, if I weren't a romantic, I could easily recount the past two months. Homework. Some socializing. Work.
But I'm not that un-reminiscent today.
Lately, I have... well, I don't know what to call it. I haven't become a photographer, by any stretch of the word. And I haven't lost faith in the written word either... but somehow I guess I just find pictures so much more powerful than I ever have before. Of *course* you've heard, a picture is worth a thousand words, but I guess I understand that now.
Now you're probably thinking I'm gonna show you a bunch of pictures, but no, you're not so lucky, haha! I just wanted to let you know about that interesting recent development; my fascination with pictures.
anyways. As I was saying; these past two months have been so much more than just methodical routines of work. These past two months have been:
romantic moments
stars
hands
renewed interest in fashion
SHOES
friendship stronger than ever before
responsibility
freedom
smells
faith
debating
stars, sweet stars
laughter
learning to care
learning not to care
finding God's will
hugs
choosing to smile
unity
loyalty
feeling restless
feeling at home
comfort
I could go through every day of the past two months and give you a detail of what I felt (oh, how I overestimate my memory) but I just don't think you would care, and I don't think it would end up interesting to anyone ;) I have found happiness beyond what I could have dreamed in these past two months, and beyond that, better even, is contentment. I can never proclaim to achieve perfect contentment; my flawed heart is always longing for something. But at least I can say I have felt the human contentment I can feel. "At last I've seen the light, and it's like the fog has lifted". I can even say I am not afraid for the future. Going into senior year was terrifying. I had no idea where I was going to be at the end of this school year, all I knew was that I was going to be leaving everything I've known for the past 17 years. But now... I'm not afraid at all. I am confident in God and His ability to lead me in the path He desires.
bring it on, winter. because fall has been lovely. <3
Cora
(p.s. - if you have an apple device and wish to see my life in pictures, you can follow me on instagram - luthiensnowtail)
